I took a tylenol pm last night, but I couldn't sleep anyways. I was up at 2 am so I Skyped with the girls. They are lonely and ready to have us home. I just want to go see my little boy again. I can't believe we have to say goodbye today. I finished packing up everything we could. We ate breakfast and waited for Wass to pick us up at 10:30. At 11:00 we called and they thought we had gone shopping and would be there in 30 minutes. Ugh!!! So hard to wait!
When we got there, Y greeted us but was a little distant. He loved up dad lots, but I felt like he was avoiding me. I was very hurt by it all and so sad to be leaving anyway. Kate was playing with him too and I just wished she would just go play with the other kids instead. I sat in the sun holding the other kids and feeling sad. The two trip policy no longer seemed like a good idea.
I decided to go read books with Y. I had him go with me to the classroom to get books and stayed on that side as everyone else was on the otherside. I just wanted some alone time. Two other kids joined us for books. Y is so smart. He repeated many words after me. I loved holding him on my lap, kissing his cheeks.
Y eventually said "dad" and wanted to go find Nick. We picked up all the books and put them away first. He was so particular about making them neat and clean. He is very organized. He called out "dad, dad" and ran off to find Nick. We played together somemore until his lunch time. After lunch, it was more play time. He loves his remote control car. It has seen better days and the batteries are starting to die.
Finally, it was bathtime. I went in with him to find out about his routine and got to help with his bath. While waiting for his turn in the tub, he was sitting on a lower bunk and I was tickling him and kissing his cheeks. He kissed my cheeks several times and told me he loved me. Melt a mommas heart.
I helped with his bath. The kids just sit in the empty tub and rinse off with a bucket of water. I wonder what he will think of his first bath in a tub full of water? They use the same towel on all the kids. The poor kid who is last gets a pretty wet towel. We put his jammies on and went back outside to play somemore. Bathtime is between 2 and 3 pm.
We sat on the ground with Nick and Nick started rubbing Y's hands and face. I took out a bottle of Holy Water that a friend gave us for the trip. Nick traced a cross on Y's forehead. We then had Y do the same to Nick, Kate, and I.
My heart was breaking as I knew time was running out and we had to leave soon. Nick got him to film for the camera hello to each of us and his brother, sisters, grandpa, and grandma. He also said I love you to the three of us. It is so sweet.
Finally, we had to leave and go check out of our hotel. Some of the others wanted to come back and say goodbye again, but we didn't. We knew it would be too tough. We hugged Y and told him goodbye and that we loved him. We were all very brave and held it together. He said "tomorrow?" That broke my heart. What would he think tomorrow when the new families showed up and not us? No one was around to translate so we had to leave without explaining we wouldn't be back.
When we left the gates, Kate and I broke down in tears. I hope and pray we get a quick Embassy date to return. I want my little boy home so bad! We got back to the hotel and checked out. They let us put all our luggage in one room (4 families). We met back in the lobby as the staff from HH were going to pick us back up at 4:00 to go back and say goodbye at 5:00. We so didn't want to go back. I was tough last time and don't think I would have been again. God must not have either as the driver misunderstood our desire to return and didn't come. "Lost in translation" seems to be the phrase here. We decided to go eat supper instead and then head to the airport at 6 pm.
Our plane was scheduled to leave at midnight, but another family in our group was flying out at 10:30 pm. We all went to the airport at the same time. We waited several times in lines and went through 2 security checkpoints. The airport is smoking and the smoke was thick everywhere. It made me feel worse then I already felt.
Kate and I did some shopping and got some last minute gifts we weren't able to get on our previous shopping day. We saw several families traveling on trip 2 bringing kids home. How badly I wished Y was with us!
Kelly
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